mysteries of life

two weeks ago on friday, someone called to tell me my friend went missing since yest. some ppl said this is probably nothing, cos she's out of contact for less den 20 hours and she's probably drunk somewhere or is partying. but thing is, she's not that kind of girl. she's those homely types and very guai and sweet. and 20 hours sure is enough time for hell to happen. me and a fren den went searching for her and contacting people who possibly noe where she is. after much worrying and searching, another fren called me to say the girl is found in sentosa went i was on my way home. details were not known, and actually i have much forgotten about this incident until recently, i realise that still, no one has seen her around in school. if that fren did not call me to say she is found, one will probably guess that she is still missing right now, cos i used to bump into her alot but now none at all. this is really super wierd. i really wanted to noe wad happen to her. she is still out of contact, strangely, and am i the only over-sensitive one to suspect sth? how come no one thinks that perhaps she being found is just a lie to call off possible hysteria?

hope she's fine, really from the bottom of my heart.

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i need stress.

i need someone to pressurise me and tell me i am stupid so i will work harder, cos now i am really super unmotivated to do work altho i have tons to do. i think its time to visit some of my ntu peeps and den witness how hard they mug and realise i have to study too! wad a lousy world to live in, feeling guilty just when u are resting. the rat race has started once we attend school and its not going to end until we retire. lousy pok.

dun feel happy at all. need interactions with animals soon before i lose it.