a new taste

i just got a feel at how uni life is like and i am very stressed alr. now that i have to bid for modules and i dunno how, plus i dunno wad i wan too.

i am now printing all the modules offered. hope it is worth my effort.

will only lend to people who treat me subway!

ps: is it only me? or does everyone has 229 views on their frenster profile too?

weekend play

travelled from bedok to boon lay to fetch one wang from camp. wa piang eh damn far. sit till backside become square. and with this i came to a horrible realisation that i extremely loathe long bus/train rides. its true that there's enough time for one to connect spiritually with his/her mind and daydream and think of social relationships and reschedule etc, but EVERYDAY! i really need to find ppl to car pool.

we wore light blue without even arranging before hand! finally some telepathy. i almost tot we are not meant to be :p

btw, do u all notice my new eyebrows? heh heh. super pain to get but at least all who noticed it said i look better. my eyebrows are too short oso.

he came to my hse today! and we played the old-school game 'snap' till we are damn high. followed by uno and risk, which the kid find to strategic and booooring. before that we bought $14.85 worth of snacks and frozen food from sheng siong to eat!

my butt looks huge here! oh man.

happy pre-birthday jerome! enjoy ur maple card!

back to happiness

was at the area outside vivocity with wang over the weekend.

see my handsome boy? he just book out only so poor thing.

went to hans to eat the very next day. and from there i finally got to munch into my highly-craved/desired cheesecake.

this is after we played the game that involve only girls! so happy that we won but i realise my face is squashed like prata.

arts precamp. another fun bunch of people.

after precamp at carls junior. the burger is NOT FILLING AT ALL! and the fries at the vivo brunch really taste like mutated human fingers. i got no idea why since they import from the same place etc.. i think its cos they left it sitting for very long before serving us. and the burger!! its just an illusion that its so big. but after i ate it, the first thing i felt was... hollow. no warm satisfied and lazy after feel. just empty, hollow...... makes me very poetic.

i finished this puzzle! very nice hor. but its only 300 pieces. wang did half of it and he said it was supposed to be a surprise but he dun have the time to complete it. plus that kid only did the parts where the cartoon characters are. play cheat.

me and lovely jill at k box last friday. somehow my phone distorts how we look. jill has a pretty nice voice but she wun sing till we force her!

which reminds me of Qz when i went to another k box session yest with arts ppl! to be honest it wasnt as fun as the sports one, cos everyone look very drowsy. and when i jump on the sofa and pull Qz sleeve he just smiled at me and refuse to get high. wad is wrong with him!? and zhijun.. her voice very nice! for a moment i tot she was miming zhang shao han's voice. and alywin said i keep zi high den no one else high with me. pi gu la.

den we went dinner etc and when i go home and went online, zhijun sent me k box pics but i look very ugly in them so i'm not gg to post. ade agreed to go matrix with me and QZ PROMISED A BA CHOR MEE OUTING!!!!!!!!! yay!

i smiled to sleep that night:)

ps: wang, i need a hug.

suddenly, just suddenly, i want to blog about wang.

two days before we had a huge quarrel over the phone and we both cried. he told me his sergeant made him say things about himself and someone shouted my name and the guys all i expect him to talk about me. but the thing is, his brother is in the same bunk as him, and he felt extremely embarrassed and he said, "can i dun talk about it?"

which made me really pissed off.

1) he make it sound like we are gg thru a rocky part of our relationship and we quarrel everyday so much that the mere mention of my name is such a turn off and he "dun wan to talk abt it"

2) we are entering our 18th month and he is still afraid to tell his family about me! and wth am i so disgraceful? that hideous to the extent that if they shud meet me they will vomit blood and we will eventually go seperate ways cos of violent protests from his family?

3) he took a bloody long time to adapt to the fact that all his frens noe we are tgt. i dun wan to wait 10 years for his family to noe i exist.

4) wad will all his bunk mates think? and if he were to bump into his mates when we are tgt wad will they think? all forms of explanation is useless den. and his frens alr think i am some despo who stick to him cos at the very beginning of our relationship, he refused to tell ppl abt me. so i am the only one-sided party who go ard saying me and wang are tgt when there is no confirmation on the guy's part.

5) he still have the bloody nerve to say i dun understand. and he also said if i want him to change this habit, i must change one bad thing about myself too.

i gave him a bloody blunt NO. cos i din do anything to upset him, so why shud i take punishement? is that fair to me? all i wan is a name and recognition, and he refused to give me that. he say he dunno why he is like that, feeling all queasy when ppl ask him about me. come to think of it, he was never really proud of me.

am i being unreasonable here? he kept saying sorry on the phone but honestly, i dun wan to forgive him at all. cos if i do, he will conveniently forgot that we had this conversation and in the end nothing will be done to correct this mistake. he said i shud give him time to change which i agreed, and the deadline is 23rd august. at that point of time i really want to break off cos i dun think i deserve to live underground. my frens used to tell me he is quite a good catch but so wad? wud u like to be with a good-looking person but suffer cos of his inadequate character?

not that i did not change anything for him. i did, looks-wise and character-wise. and i dun go ard whacking ppl anymore and i dun do things he dun like. so wads taking him so long to change? i din slap him when he told me to get rid of my specs and to have long hair, even tho i tot that was superficial of him to say things like that.

he den said he shud not have told me wad happened at his bunk. ok den continue to hide things from me! imagine if he hadn't told me abt this i will probably live underground for the next decade. and this problem will never be solved and the hurdle remained, obstructing our way. i am still very angry when we hung up.

yesterday, i waited six freaking hours for his reply. i tot he was busy with army stuff when i saw his sms to another person, sent wrongly to me. i practically exploded. u can tell from the contents that it was not the first sms to the other party, and that they have been holding the conversation for very long. WTH! immediately i sms him and ask him why he is so happy abt the activities next day, as stated in the sms. he only replied me at midnight which is another two hours. i was pissed. but the next morning his sms read, "huh i smsed u lei! told u i was packing for field camp etc... and i din receive ur reply too! the sms i sent wrong is act to jerome and i sms him after i sms u. i jus ro and its 12 now. tml need wake up at 5.30 etc.... tried calling u but ur phone is off. hai sorry if i neglected u cos i was busy. u can tell me more bout the bangla when i book out. dun think i will see ur reply cos i'll be leaving at 7 sharp tml, i hope u can take gd care of urself and wait for me to come back. we will cherish each other more. i love u good night."

i teared. i tot he was being very sweet and it is my fault that i misunderstood. i guess i am still pretty influenced about wad happened the night before. and for the next few days we wun be talking to each other cos of his field camp.

but its alright. we are 17 months old and still going strong.

ps:/ the bangla is just an irritating jerk who pester me when i was at ps around 10.30pm. as it was late and wang did not sms to check if i was safe, i was very pissed. so when that idiot bangla walked towards me and do annoying things, i growled so angrily at him he backed off.

puzzled

*cant seem to upload pics and my usb plug is mood swinging again.*

had a very busy week!

monday: went to nus for medical check up with diana. had to say we got alot to talk about. she even wan to compare our urine samples lol. after that we went to satisfy my craving for subway. must say i have tried to suppress them for so long till the desire to eat is too overwhelming. den we went to clementi to PLUCK EYEBROWS. actually its her who want to do it den i went along. threading. a few *yeouch* hairs at a time. left me feeling very sore and teary at the end of the ordeal. really really freaking hell lots pain. den we shop ard and do cheapskate window shopping and den decide to go jurong east instead cos there have more places to shop ho ho.

tuesday: uniform outing with sports camp ppl. met jill earlier for girl's talk den nic joined us before we eventually meet the rest. went to mind's cafe. must say it is a damn lol experience.

thursday: shud be gg k box with the arts ppl.

friday: shopping with a mole and a dog.

sat and sun is reserved for wang.

i think i am quite an unfilial daughter:( and the rain is ruining my mood. hope the heavens dun cry tml.

pre camp and sports camp

took this with ms.pretty while we are travelling to sentosa. i am so dark:( will swear to take as less pics as possible during o week.

was chosen as councillor for o week. only the 3 of us girls came. after our muddy games we came over and took some pics.

pre camp is quite fun but for some reason all of us felt really lethargic despite the not-so-demanding schedule. and the girls asked me to go tanning with them at sentosa next week! i think they are either crazy or blind. i am dark enough as it is! but since i love them so much and they asked me so sincerely i shall go :p

at snow city. was to slide down the slope behind us. my group was damn crazy. in order to earn points the guys took off their shirt and cheer in the freezing cold. i think if u drool alot u will get frost bite very easily(careful wang!)

at sentosa. cant remember wad we are doing. not everyone is here tho. i am starting to love white cos of my tan. pardon me for my continuous whining, but i really am black therefore i cant help complaining.

i'm at the left with white cap and shirt. notice why i am always at the corner? and we are not trying to act cute, we are just posing with a lian hua (lotus flower) cos our group is called bai lian jiao; xiao bai, ah lian and lao jiao. guess which one i am in?
this is one very cute photo! we were all acting bimbotic. there's this cheer tt go; i'm a bimbo, i'm a bimbo, i'm a b-i-m-b-O! den the O at the last part requires u to look up and act stupid. lol and we are all acting stupid here.

last day of camp when we paint our own banners etc and i wrote a very nice ah lain in calligraphy on our work! yay!!

1st day of sports camp. pool games. me and bz are at the bottom right looking completely smitten with each other. we all wore white in unison cos we were told to, no surprise there.

pajama party at the last night of sports camp. my ogl weide lent me his fren's pj so i wun look so out cast. but i look very stupid in the oversized dress. den we went clubbing this way and the rest went to eat supper looking like tt but thank goodness i chose the right choice and went to bed instead.

at dirt biking place.

amazing race! we went to alot of checkpoints to take pics with certain buildings and played some games invented by the crazy project grp. we have to find a couple french-kissing and take a picture of them before we can cont our journey! tts extremely ridiculous la and the station ic still said that the previous grp before us had a guy and girl frenched each other anyway! wa the cheap things ppl will do to win a game! my fave stop was at the you tiao stop! we actually have 15 mins to sit down and enjoy the food yay! i ordered a beancurd and you tiao only to look up and realise i am the only one eating. oops. the rest jus sat there panting or looking sleepy while watching me eat.

before the exciting night

sports camp rock in a way arts camp dun, but i still like my arts ppl more:)

sports camp

the ogls are more high den arts camp, but i am very sad to say that my og ppl dun look out for one another, except jill:) like when u are in the loo they will jus leave witout u, and dun inform the ogls too. and sadly, all the girls clubbed and i have to sleep at the lobby till they are done:( the boys are not as nice as arts camp guys, probly cos i hanged out with the arts ppl more often, so it may be an unfair judgement.

at the dirt-biking area. jill is the girl in white in front of me. she is damn nice!

will have a sports camp outing this friday. if jill is not gg, dun think i will attend too, cant really click with the other girls. no offence, but they are quite boring. zzz

another happy day

went out with these few intimidating looking dudes. (notice why boys nv smile when u take pics with them? ah wang rarely smiles too)

and of cos my beloved yayan. we were eating at carls junior but me and yayan da bao subway over. when i was munching on bennett's fries and den i finished it all without knowing it. but bennett say it is ok and Qz seeing it all, says, "cindi, is your bf very skinny?"

"erm, quite."

"you noe why?"

*shakes head*

"cos u ate all his food and he says never mind, i love you."

super funny lor. den the boys have very poor appetites and after Qz finished his meal, he said he cant stand up. den i stood up for him to see den the rest laughed. after wards i bugged the others to go eat ba chor mee with me. but only yanwei yayan and jiesheng went with me. jiesheng keep reminding me to be grateful to them for pei-ing me go satisfy my craving. lol

plus i'm not sure why, yayan seems very giggly around jiesheng.

super outdated pics! went bugis wit the mole to get bikini

did this kind of narcissistic acts on the bus. but its ok, cos we are two good-looking babes! (wa damn bhb)
and this concludes my stand.

updates on sports camp: cant seem to find any pics taken during sports camp. i suspect someone deliberately destroy them cos my faces are in there sob.

sports camp had successfully fried me into a charcoal-resembling, tanned-but-not-burnt-and-peeling, dark-but-a-far-cry-from-beach-babe individual. oh i am so happy.

THANKS ALOT HUH mr sun, for roasting me!!! but at least i am not peeling horribly like some i saw in the camp, i am just so freaking tanned. there was once i was so desperate i almost reached for my mom's whitening product. thank goodness i managed to pull myself tgt before i commit a disgraceful act never to be erased from my memory.

i tried
1) air rifle shooting
2) wind surfing
3) cable ski
4) banana boat
5) dirt biking
6) archery
7) rock climbing
8) confidence jump
9) diving
10) kayaking (tried before the camp tho)
11) dragon boating
12) and i slide down a measly slope at snow city

now i am not hesitant to try new sports! sports camp really boost my confidence in myself in believing that i can actually accomplished many things.

windsurfing made me really sea sick tho. i have no problem getting on the board and standing up, but i am real bad in getting the sail up cos it was scooping up water from the sea ie. very heavy. i tried surfing for 3 times (each ard 20 secs) and i was unstable again and fell into the water. the rocking of the board made me very dizzy but fortunately by the time i went on shore to rest, the session is almost over.

banana boat: thrilling! but when i fall into the water when the boat flips i believe i sprained my neck. no big injuries tho, jus got real difficulties raising my head. and worse of all, my swim suit bottom keep slipping down. thank god we are at open waters so i still have some dignity left for me. thank you murky waters! we flipped two times and felt like failures cos we cant coordinate well. but there's no fun if u dun flip:)

dirt biking: i get to ride a real bike! almost got my calf burnt by the engine tho. i fell from the bike once and altho its smaller den the usual motor bike, it sure is heavy. crushed my leg beneath its weight but as usual, i emerge ok cos i am so strong :P only one girl out of 7 gets to try and guess who's the lucky gal???

rock climbing: wasnt as scary as i tot. fear of heights is jus an excuse to forgive urself for resorting to escapism.

confidence jump: really hurts down there. and my bottom rode up this time. hai. (for suku ppl who dunno, u are jumping 5m above water into a pool)

we had the SP thing again, and i felt very awkward when i saw he was shorter den me. but he was a damn nice guy la, gives me a very familiar feeling, until i realise he looks like kangrong(confirmation from bz). he lend me his shirt when i felt cold(altho i din take) and bought merci chocs instead of $5 stuff. but worse of all, we have to do fright night tgt. lucky i was more courageous this time as compared to arts camp. (and we made a zombie laughed.) we were looking for clues when this ghost scare us from behind a chair and i whacked his head. turns out to be my ogl oops.

bz is very poor thing cos her Sp CMI. he was like the social outcast of my grp. and he scolded me for calling bz cos i was interrupting their conversation. i think he is obsessed. plus bz miss called me of cos i call back right. ass.

food is nicer den arts camp, but we have to sacrifice a nice bed for that. slept on wooden hard floor cushioned by my sleeping bag.

plus i made a good girl fren there too:)

why i am such a happy woman

went out with my arts camp ppl to watch transformers yesterday!!!! yay!

caught shufen first and she was super hyper the whole night. keep making jokes and laughing to herself. i asked her why she is so high she said cos she anticipated the whole outing since the start of her day. so cute.

den the girls started coming and OMG adelaine is so pretty! she got makeup on cos she need sell makeup products. den the boys started coming in. i realise that nowadays a very upsetting trend is present. HOW COME NOW WE HAVE TO WAIT FOR THE GUYS LEI! girls are now more on time den their male counterparts and i dun think i like wad i see cos boys are made to wait for girls!! not that i am angry i have to wait for them yesterday, in fact i feel quite happy that they eventually made it. i jus wan to let the boys noe (esp wang) to not let ur significant halves wait for u!

after transformers we gossiped at mos burger and armed with my favourite milkshake, we pester the boys to tell us juicy scandals we missed out cos they went out wit the ogls and nv jio us! sickening.

had a very fun and laugh-out-loud night.

ps: my poor wang is locked in this weekend cos he tio duty! so poor thing he was suffering all night while i was having fun. a lil guilty.

very de long entry ahead. but it all about my arts camp! all the ppl, activities and juicy scandals all in one.


the night when we go clubbing. the two very cute ladies twisting in front are our house ICs. i tell u, its all cos of them that my arts camp is a huge success. fun till u burst. they aresuper crazy and cheer at every small thing eg: the emcee has a yellow mike and our house color is yellow, they will cheer. lol. they really are damn cute and they let my arts camp very memorable.

my og. only four boys and i din count the girls. but we are so bonded we will noe who is missing witout even doing a head count. but tts only for the girls. i din really bonded well with some girls and the girls ogls. from top left: qiaozhi(smiling guy with the mascot), samantha(ogl), jiesheng(my scandalous gay partner), edward and carrissa(fright night partner who scare the hell out of me.) 2nd row: bennett alywin and yanwei. bonded most with bennett cos of soccer i think and found out alywin to be quite a flirt. 3rd row: therese, shufen, evon, adelaine and zhijun. all these girls are the coolest and they are very nice to me during the camp. dun u all think adelaine look like lizhen(edmund's gf)? i told her abt that and she looks super upset. poor girl. and the first girl from the right look damn like doris(sec3 and 4 grace). shu fen looks like xiangting. and she is damn nice and caring! front row: urs truly, fiona diana khaijun and marilyn. fiona and marilyn i din really talk to them cos they too quiet liao. khai jun is very nice to talk to despite her quiet exterior. DIANA!! whoohoo my partner thruout the camp. dance tgt,eat tgt etc. she is very cute and is the sister of our ogl!! nv tell me! some partner sia. ha ha

since all of us girls look so guai and demure, we all found that clubbing is really not for us. so we got out of that place and went to chill here, ice lattes and cakes and all.

during our amazing race outside ikea. all the girls. i really love them all. i look like a sore thumb here tho, with our vain-attempt-at-spongebob mscot.

me and zhijun. damn pretty. doris look-alike.

1) fright night. was grouped with diana carissa and bennett. we went in the dark toilet and the girls start crowding behind me. benett was in front of me all the way so actually i am like the most secure person altho not the most afraid ha ha. i saw a guy in black cloak sprawled on the floor so i tried to push the girls away from him and towards the sink. but carrissa resisted and later explained tt she feared someone will grab her from below the sink(din tot of tt). lol the girls had a scream fest all the way and me and bennett were looking for clues. den i saw one light stick at the very end of the loo and told bennett. when he approached it a dark figure spurt up and the girls yell like mad. den bennett was like"those are our seniors", "dun scared or we stay here forever" and to the ghost "you are so cool, look like paul twohill" really is super lol.

2) clubbing. not the thing itself that is fun, its the bonding we did as an alternative. talk abt guys at the cafe till late with the entire group of girls. so sweet :)

3) games: i stand out when i played pepsi cola cos i noe a lil soccer and tkd and i "killed" the first girl with one move. hahahahaa our opponents were very bitchy so we like hate them alot. when i was out of the game, my darling frens came over and ask if i am ok. den my ogl(who look very guai and gentle) said she feel like slapping one of the girls from the opposing team. i was shocked, but i cant help but feel that when someone nice and quiet wans to slap u, u mus be more den bitchy. lol. den another game whr everyone laughed at me is the balloon stepping game. teamed up with alywin and he was freaking competitive!! before the game he said sth like "ok i lose out a little let u hug me". i was so pissed! but i am so sporty and nice i went with the game. we were the last pair in my team cos all my frens were out and there were two against us from the opposing team. when alywin attacked the others he flung me around and i was really flying. not kidding. he is super strong and i claw his neck like mad. i had my ballooned feet up all the while cos other guys were trying to step on my balloon. den one opposing guy said"lets see how long u can keep ur feet up" and haha i keep it up thru the entire game. when the game ended all my frens were like patting me on my back and saying that my helpless expression is priceless and yayan says she rmb tt face for the rest of her life. lol. at night alywin told me his neck hurts when he bathes and that i look so fragile he scared he break me. haha. and we played another game whwere all girls and no guys took part!! and WE WON!! was so touched and happy after that and at the very moment felt that all the girls are so cool. i love them!

we had speed dating and it was ok fun cos i have to keep screaming at the top of my voice. quite a few guys noe my name before i even introduce myself. den there were two guys from tpjc and one said he had seen me ard in tpjc. i asked him how but he refused to say. i hate it when they act secretive. den two other guys said they noe my name cos on the very first day we played games and were team mates for 5 seconds. and they rmb me till the third day. freaky. one of them keep staring at me when i walk by cos we are in the same group, i keep catching him staring. he is super nerd-looking and he says he wans lots of girls to be in econs so he can get As easily. asshole. there are two seniors who are very nice too and they tell me abt cca and arts modules. i dun ask lame things like wad are u gg to major in cos i wan to noe wad ccas to join. think their names is jackson and colin. and colin turns out to be my SP and we talked about our significant halfs the whole night. haha

and jiesheng! my scandalous gay ogl like i have said. cos we keep saying stupid things to each other such that some girls in my og tot we are tgt. really is damn funny den i tell them that we are jus playing and he is too "gay" for my liking and cant really talk to him one to one too. but he is a super nice guy, his "gayness" spice up the whole camp.

i had a really great time at arts camp. i love my group and house ics!